I did meet Akechi, but he was just a kid at the time. I'm sure that's probably not how he wants me to remember him. Considering you sent him that text the other day, we've been talking. He seems smart. I can tell that much.
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I doubt it, though not much has changed since then. Akechi-kun is almost exactly the same as Akutagawa-kun at his core, but there's a fundamental difference between the two of them.
[ He wouldn't be honest about this with anyone else, but... ]
Akechi-kun is fueled by emotion rather than logic. He sees the world in binaries. There's the strong and the weak, and there's winners and losers. In his case, he wants to see life as a game of chess or go, but he's not capable of learning the rules, much less playing it better than anyone else.
He has potential though. If he could develop even a hint of sense and awareness of the world around him, and if he could overcome whatever hurt and anger has possessed him, then he could be dangerous. As it is, his talent is squandered. It's atrophying as we speak.
I'm sure you'll see the difference between the pair of them when you meet him again. It's quite simple, after all.
Akutagawa-kun wants to live. Akechi-kun wants to die. In that regard, I'm sure both will have their wishes granted.
You seem to know this kid better than I thought. That's an awfully in depth assessment. You really picked him apart.
I'll have to keep an eye out, I guess. He definitely doesn't appear that way on the surface.
[He was a sweet kid. Possessed by anger and hurt? Oda resents that. He'd like to think Dazai's wrong, but he isn't often, and he clearly has some reason for saying so.]
[Oda had suspected, but to say something like that...It's awfully significant, coming from Dazai, he thinks. It doesn't make him feel less affectionate for Akechi. That's for sure.]
Given what you told me, I can start to understand, I think.
It makes sense you'd be able to spot something like that in someone else, I suppose.
The chances of him living much longer are relatively slim. It might be for the best. Even if he were to decide to live now, there's nothing but pain waiting for him.
The kind thing to do would be to give him a painless death, but that's not an option either.
[Doomed to either death or a life of pain? Those don't have to be the only options. Dazai and Odasaku have talked about their lives in this place. He'd never suggest asking someone to stay here, but what he can say is...]
Just give him a chance to live while he's here. What else can you do, Dazai?
Painful or not, he has no choice but to live right now. Once he leaves this place, it'll be out of your hands regardless.
You don't know what might come of it. Nothing here is certain. That's what everyone says.
It's difficult because Dazai agreed to become a person who saves the weak and protects the orphans. He promised to be something more. Odasaku is right, too. Akechi will leave, and after that it won't be his problem.
It seems as though he should care about what happens after more than he does, but four years have passed and nothing has changed.
Still, he's taking what's said to heart here. ]
You're right. If I keep acting like a nuisance, I'm sure that something interesting will happen.
I think he might try to kill me at some point. Wouldn't that be fun if he did? It's been awhile since anyone has.
He will. He has to, in fact. I've been spending my time making increasingly ridiculous demands to see when he'll finally say "no," but he keeps going along with them.
If he can't learn when to tactfully decline, then the next best thing is a childish outburst.
["Worried" isn't really the word. He's just unhappy with the idea that someone else - someone young - has to live with that kind of pain. Dazai is perceptive about these kind of things. He makes a good detective for a reason. The more they talk, the more it makes sense.
[He'd struggle to put any of that into words.]
I'm not worried. I'd just wish better for the kid.
[Not much promise on the "just let him live his life" front, but Oda is well aware that, to a certain extent, people with abilities just aren't able to do that sort of thing. At times, it seems to Oda that one common pain binds them all. If Akechi really is someone like Dazai, then Oda can't simply wish an easier life into existence for him. It would mean he's fighting a battle only he understands.
[At any rate, they're both perfectly capable of handling themselves. He'll mind his business, as he does.]
I'd be curious to know what you find out. It seems you've managed to dig up a lot already, detective.
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Have you met Akechi-kun yet? What do you make of him?
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dazai really just gossiping with bestie about all his cr
I love it so much
Like Akutagawa-kun? How do you figure that? The difference too.
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Akechi-kun is fueled by emotion rather than logic. He sees the world in binaries. There's the strong and the weak, and there's winners and losers. In his case, he wants to see life as a game of chess or go, but he's not capable of learning the rules, much less playing it better than anyone else.
He has potential though. If he could develop even a hint of sense and awareness of the world around him, and if he could overcome whatever hurt and anger has possessed him, then he could be dangerous. As it is, his talent is squandered. It's atrophying as we speak.
I'm sure you'll see the difference between the pair of them when you meet him again. It's quite simple, after all.
Akutagawa-kun wants to live. Akechi-kun wants to die. In that regard, I'm sure both will have their wishes granted.
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You seem to know this kid better than I thought. That's an awfully in depth assessment. You really picked him apart.
I'll have to keep an eye out, I guess. He definitely doesn't appear that way on the surface.
[He was a sweet kid. Possessed by anger and hurt? Oda resents that. He'd like to think Dazai's wrong, but he isn't often, and he clearly has some reason for saying so.]
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You're right. I said too much.
He has people to take care of him, so it's none of my business.
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You didn't say too much. I don't feel that way. You can tell me whatever you think. I respect your opinion, so I'd like to know.
It lets me know to be cautious. That's all. I'll give the kid his own chance to make an impression regardless.
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He just reminds me a bit of someone. That's all.
[ Which is probably why Dazai's struggling to speak his thoughts now. ]
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It makes me think that there's something I'm missing.
[ Now, who could that be? ]
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You're not going to tell me who it is? Dazai?
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He reminds me a bit of myself, though we're nothing alike. In fact, I would be offended if anyone else were to suggest it.
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Given what you told me, I can start to understand, I think.
It makes sense you'd be able to spot something like that in someone else, I suppose.
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The kind thing to do would be to give him a painless death, but that's not an option either.
What's the right thing to do here, Odasaku?
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Just give him a chance to live while he's here. What else can you do, Dazai?
Painful or not, he has no choice but to live right now. Once he leaves this place, it'll be out of your hands regardless.
You don't know what might come of it. Nothing here is certain. That's what everyone says.
He deserves a chance, I think.
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It's difficult because Dazai agreed to become a person who saves the weak and protects the orphans. He promised to be something more. Odasaku is right, too. Akechi will leave, and after that it won't be his problem.
It seems as though he should care about what happens after more than he does, but four years have passed and nothing has changed.
Still, he's taking what's said to heart here. ]
You're right. If I keep acting like a nuisance, I'm sure that something interesting will happen.
I think he might try to kill me at some point. Wouldn't that be fun if he did? It's been awhile since anyone has.
I hope you'll get along with him.
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You might be able to, too, without getting killed. You think you'll push him to that point?
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If he can't learn when to tactfully decline, then the next best thing is a childish outburst.
Are you worried?
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[He'd struggle to put any of that into words.]
I'm not worried. I'd just wish better for the kid.
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[ He knows that's not what Odasaku means, but this is a more digestible way of expressing any thoughts he might have. ]
He's an Ability user. I want to see what he can do.
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[At any rate, they're both perfectly capable of handling themselves. He'll mind his business, as he does.]
I'd be curious to know what you find out. It seems you've managed to dig up a lot already, detective.
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To this day, you're the only person who I've had a hard time reading. Has anyone commented on it here, or is this group a little sharper?
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for fuck's sake
FELLAS IS IT GAY IF YOU DO WHATEVER THIS IS
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cw: suicide mention
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