I've heard some real crazy stories from people here. Mine's not that exciting.
I was in school. Pretty strict and prestigious. My father wanted me to become a banker like him, so I was supposed to go to a top college. Study finance. Get married. Have kids. Raise them to be bankers. Carry on the legacy, or something.
I wasn't interested in all that. So it's better I'm here.
In all fairness, a magic-filled alternate reality does sound a lot more interesting than banking. Not that I have any room to judge. My job was pretty boring too.
[Being in the mafia is actually also a lot more interesting than banking, but sure.]
[He knows Dazai doesn't see it that way. He knows Dazai probably wouldn't want him to see it that way. There were things about the Port Mafia that were important, that Oda still cherishes - Dazai, of course, being one of them - but...
[All he wanted was a room by the ocean to write in. He has that now, and more too. If he weren't under yet another contract, maybe he'd finally feel that simple freedom he's always longed for, but...
[It's felt a little better, at least. That could be an illusion. It's not as though he hasn't had to fight here too. He could simply be destined to remain trapped, no matter where he turns..
[But it's felt a little better, at least.]
It was a hard life to break away from once you were in it. I spent a lot of time doing work like that. There's a little more time to do what I want to now.
[Which, with petals fluttering in his lungs:]
I haven't done much with that either. Something holds me back.
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I was in school. Pretty strict and prestigious. My father wanted me to become a banker like him, so I was supposed to go to a top college. Study finance. Get married. Have kids. Raise them to be bankers. Carry on the legacy, or something.
I wasn't interested in all that. So it's better I'm here.
[ Plus, Neil. ]
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[Being in the mafia is actually also a lot more interesting than banking, but sure.]
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[He knows Dazai doesn't see it that way. He knows Dazai probably wouldn't want him to see it that way. There were things about the Port Mafia that were important, that Oda still cherishes - Dazai, of course, being one of them - but...
[All he wanted was a room by the ocean to write in. He has that now, and more too. If he weren't under yet another contract, maybe he'd finally feel that simple freedom he's always longed for, but...
[It's felt a little better, at least. That could be an illusion. It's not as though he hasn't had to fight here too. He could simply be destined to remain trapped, no matter where he turns..
[But it's felt a little better, at least.]
It was a hard life to break away from once you were in it. I spent a lot of time doing work like that. There's a little more time to do what I want to now.
[Which, with petals fluttering in his lungs:]
I haven't done much with that either. Something holds me back.
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It's more than that. Something I haven't figured out yet.
I've wanted more. If you asked me of what, I wouldn't know what to say.
Have you ever felt like that?
god if only oda and neil could have cr
I wrote a poem about that once. I got my sax back, so once I can breathe I'll read it to you if you want.
Dunno if it'll help but it can't hurt.
hehe...we can move toward a lil wrap if u wanna
How are you breathing now? Did we make any difference?
sobs good guy oda!!!!
I really owe you one when we're better.
HE IS GOOD GUY!!!
I'll see you around, Charlie-san.