[Things do feel different now. Odasaku can't truly imagine how unmoored Dazai must feel, given everything - how unmoored anyone would feel, anyway. Dazai always projects that he knows exactly what he's doing.
[It's gotten difficult to talk flippantly about something like taking one's own life, now that Odasaku knows how it truly feels.
[And he isn't sure how to navigate what's changed, what he's learned, who Dazai became, and who he is now, how that differs from the Dazai Oda once knew.
[They're all Dazai. He's grateful.
[Something he says catches Oda's attention, though. He watches Dazai for a moment, quiet.]
Before you left the first time, you wanted to stay. Do you remember that?
[Traveling this world, however big it may be, and finding hole-in-the-wall bars to drink in. Maybe this Dazai doesn't want that anymore. Odasaku shouldn't have assumed.]
:( cw: suicide talk
[It's gotten difficult to talk flippantly about something like taking one's own life, now that Odasaku knows how it truly feels.
[And he isn't sure how to navigate what's changed, what he's learned, who Dazai became, and who he is now, how that differs from the Dazai Oda once knew.
[They're all Dazai. He's grateful.
[Something he says catches Oda's attention, though. He watches Dazai for a moment, quiet.]
Before you left the first time, you wanted to stay. Do you remember that?
[Traveling this world, however big it may be, and finding hole-in-the-wall bars to drink in. Maybe this Dazai doesn't want that anymore. Odasaku shouldn't have assumed.]