[He knows Dazai doesn't see it that way. He knows Dazai probably wouldn't want him to see it that way. There were things about the Port Mafia that were important, that Oda still cherishes - Dazai, of course, being one of them - but...
[All he wanted was a room by the ocean to write in. He has that now, and more too. If he weren't under yet another contract, maybe he'd finally feel that simple freedom he's always longed for, but...
[It's felt a little better, at least. That could be an illusion. It's not as though he hasn't had to fight here too. He could simply be destined to remain trapped, no matter where he turns..
[But it's felt a little better, at least.]
It was a hard life to break away from once you were in it. I spent a lot of time doing work like that. There's a little more time to do what I want to now.
[Which, with petals fluttering in his lungs:]
I haven't done much with that either. Something holds me back.
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[He knows Dazai doesn't see it that way. He knows Dazai probably wouldn't want him to see it that way. There were things about the Port Mafia that were important, that Oda still cherishes - Dazai, of course, being one of them - but...
[All he wanted was a room by the ocean to write in. He has that now, and more too. If he weren't under yet another contract, maybe he'd finally feel that simple freedom he's always longed for, but...
[It's felt a little better, at least. That could be an illusion. It's not as though he hasn't had to fight here too. He could simply be destined to remain trapped, no matter where he turns..
[But it's felt a little better, at least.]
It was a hard life to break away from once you were in it. I spent a lot of time doing work like that. There's a little more time to do what I want to now.
[Which, with petals fluttering in his lungs:]
I haven't done much with that either. Something holds me back.